The day is here

June 4, 2009

The day is here. If I don’t have a word on this, I will hate myself in all my life.

This great day, which haunting those demons everyday, seams never ever exists. It’s so quiet at the twentieth anniversary that someone may ask “did that really happen?”

Until the Live Spaces becoming dead spaces which remind us those demons are trembling with fear reveals the evidence. Which also reminds some guys that we actually live in some walled place you can call it, yes, a prison.

We are all prisoners of the state, same as Mr. Zhao Ziyang. Some people know that and most don’t yet. They seam have never known there is a wall out there even in the Internet Age. They seam lead a happy life, until one day they also utter “fuck the wall” when they are blocked in their “beautiful garden”.

I don’t know how to answer my seventies-year-old parents when they ask “why we can’t open the website to see my grandson’s pictures” in the near days. I wrote some text and uploaded some photos of my months-old baby to share them with his grandpa and grandma live thousands miles away. I set up the site on the Live Spaces simply because I believed this self-censored service in China will unlikely be blocked from my old parents. That’s not the case anymore.

All the things they did in the past twenty years show these guys in power hate Gorbachev. They seam like Ceausescu so much. One day the Chinese people maybe have to respect their will.

I have never lose my optimism even at these darkest and silentest days. One day we Chinese people will be not just like Mr. Andy Dufresne breaking the Shawshank prison, we’ll tear down the whole ugly wall like Germans tore down their Berlin Wall, and finally get our freedom. We’ll sing as Martin Luther King wished: “Free at last! free at last! thank God Almighty, we are free at last!”

I believe the great day twenty years ago was a really inspiring start.

The comments on the NYT article “Before Guests Arrive, Beijing Hides Some Messes” really shocked me. Most of them made me kinda sick and sad.

The NYT article was a good piece uncovering a corner of the true situation in Beijing before the Olympics opening, though many deemed the story was “China bashing”, and “not newsworthy”, the city beautifying was right or at least understandable, because they thought that kind of things happened a lot, and everyone knew that.

Guys, you were totally misunderstanding the point. Beautification of the city was not the problem. The problem was how the city treat its people.

Yes, beautifying before a big event coming is not news at all, but systematically abusing its citizens by the government is. I believe every case of human abusing and human suffering would make news. It’s a forever theme of journalism.

And people in that city (and yes, in all over China) was suffering from the authorities for the sake of image. That’s the all what the NYT story wanted to tell you.

Those believed the story “not new” presented some examples, like things happened in Chicago in 1968, Montreal in 1976, Los Angles in 1984, without any concrete and convincing evidence.

All those events held in overseas a few decades ago seam so far away that I can’t have a clue and make comment. I don’t know if there existed any human rights issue in those events. If something bad to their people really happened, I feel sorry and sympathetic to those as I feel the same to my compatriots today. But those were all old days and I believe in western civilized world today, as one commenter put it: “In today’s world is quite hard to imagine one day waking up with a wall covering the front of people’s homes, or a veil covering their businesses just because they do not comply with the standards of beauty.”

Others took the happening for granted because they thought they treated their stuffs like laundry the same way when they invited guests to their houses. These statements were totally wrong, because human beings is absolutely not stuffs. Even as unfortunate as those disadvantaged Chinese people, they should own human rights and civil rights and human dignity as well as westerners. They are not doomed to be victimized, even for the sake of public good! Nobody should be treated in that way. Everybody is not like the “stuffs” you can casually throw, hide or destroy at will.

Should they been sacrificed for the beauty of the city, for the incoming glorious event, for the pleasant sightseeing of foreign athletes, leaders and tourists? No. If someone must pay for the beauty of the city, it must be those who most benefit from the beautification of the city.

China is not just another exotic tourist resort. Chinese people have suffered from ruthless and corrupt despots and bureaucrats for thousands of years. We don’t deserve more suffering because of foreigners. Chinese are open and warmhearted to all kindly friends come from abroad, but those apathetic tourists regarding Chinese pains like the way they treat monkeys in zoo would not deserve it.

If those indifferent comments not came from apathetic heart, it probably came from ignorant mind. Beautification of cities in China are not as the same way most western countries run. There is always an “Chinese characteristic” way done by the authorities to average Chinese. When a governmental campaign comes, citizens are brutally dealt with, houses are arbitrarily teared down, hundreds of thousands of low-income immigrants are mercilessly driven out, dissidents are illegally tracked and harassed, protesters are beaten, tortured and even arrested. It’s out of luck for you when your property or livelihood was in the way. No equitable negotiation. No modest compromising. No fair compensation.

I believe most westerners have no idea what befall average Chinese everyday by the authorities. Most of you seem so friendly to China while critical to your own countries. Unfortunately these kind of friendliness are actually Chinese-government-friendly, not Chinese-people-friendly. These kind of comments sound so familiar to Chinese people just like the tones of the CCP Propaganda Dept hyping everyday. More and more Chinese people know what crap they are today.

“One World, One Dream” is the theme of Beijing Olympics. It’s true that Chinese share the same planet with people in the rest of the world, so as we share the same dream of prosperity, democracy, freedom and happiness with people in the rest of the world. We deserve respect and a better life. Don’t make stupid comments until you really understand what’s happening in China. Help us if you really like China. Keeping concern for the truth and pressure on human rights issues will do the trick.










这三天来,我的gamil账号wozy.in都不能使用了,问题很怪,就是邮箱可以登录进去,显示收件箱邮件列表页面(通过https的安全web浏览方式),但是里面任何链接都不能点击打开,包括旧邮件,新邮件、邮件撰写、不同文件夹和lable,甚至设置页面,全都不能打开。点击未读邮件时,可以看到浏览器状态栏上在进行连接通信,但通信完后(显示done状态),页面并没有改变,并没有打开刚点击的邮件阅读页面,但是收件箱邮件列表中该未读邮件这时可能已改成已读状态了。这还算好的,更糟糕的情况是,在点击邮件、连接通信的过程中,浏览器经常停止响应了——CPU 100%!(对了,邮箱里的gtalk,可以打开好友和发信息,但是点击按钮无法关闭已打开的聊天窗口!)

经今天的仔细测试,已排除了跟我的电脑、浏览器、网络连接和GFW 等有关的可能性——不管是使用Firefox还是IE7,不管开不开代理,情况都是一样,但是使用其它的gmail账号则可以正常使用。所以问题已经可以确定——是我的这一个Gmail账号出了问题。





P.S. 有朋友碰到同样情况的吗,以前或者最近几天?如有烦请交流一下。另如有跟gmail服务方面有过交涉的朋友,也请教下过程经验。


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